The Colon Club

Things have been hectic and scary around our house. Larry just hasn't been doing well. Last Monday was chemo day, but he wasn't physically ready for chemo again. Counts were whacked, still had no energy, still fighting mouth sores, strange pain in his leg.....so we decided to give him a week and try again. On Wednesday we found out that he had a blood clot in his leg (thus the pain), but it was in a superficial vein, NOT a deep vein. So, they sent him home with instructions to take 800 mg of Ibuprofen 3 times a day for three days, and not mess with his Coumadin dosage. This seemed to help the leg pain, and we thought things were going well. On Friday I noticed some swelling in his face and hands, but didn't think much of it. Yesterday, it became much more pronounced. And Larry is back in the hospital with a blood clot in the superior vena cava, below his port. He had this about this time last year, too.... interesting thing is that oncologist had just cut his Coumadin from a therapeutic level to a maintenance level 3 weeks ago. Guess Larry is one of the "lucky" ones who will have to remain on therapeutic Coumadin.....

His CEA has been rising steadily. Doubled, then doubled again. Waiting to hear what it is now.......definitely going to need to re-scan and see what our options are. Although, right now, he can't physically handle chemo of any sort......

The kids are scared. I'm exhausted. Larry is .......I don't know how he is. We are just kind of on auto pilot. As I crawled into bed at 3 am this morning, for the first time ever, I was very cognizant of the fact that Larry wasn't beside me, and I had a meltdown. Looking ahead to the future.....wondering..... crying.....praying........ I can't even let my mind go there, but last night, I couldn't stop it. And cried myself to sleep, and slept for 5 hours, and now feel better.

Please friends, pray for us. For strength. For the faith to get through these days. For the children.....they are just......breaking my heart. They try so hard to be brave. But they are really seeing some physical changes in their dad, and reality......just pretty much sucks.....

Will update when we know more. We covet your prayers and good wishes. We just want more time. Good time. Please, pray with us for time.....

Anji

Oh Anji, I am sorry to read your pain. At least they were able to dx the blot clot and hopefully resolve it quickly. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Larry and kids.

Anji my prayers and positive vibes go your way!

Sorry you have to go through this difficult time.I am with your family. Prayer's and positive thoughts are with you.

Mona

Sounds like rough conditions and a tough time for all of you - my prayers for you, Larry, and your children.

Anji and Family ... Healthy energy, positive thoughts and strong prayers coming from South Dakota.

Rosie

Thinking of you and sending lots of prayers...what a cruel disease this is. Remember what cancer cannot do- it can't destroy love or the spirit. Be strong even though it's hard.

Anji,

My prayers are with all of you. My heart is breaking for both you and the kids. I hate, hate this cancer. I wish I had the magic words to say to make everything all better, but there are no words. There is absolutely nothing anyone can say to make the pain go away. You are such a woman of faith and everyone of your posts show that. Just remember God won't give you more than you can handle. Give it God and let him take care of it. I know from personal experience that it is very difficult to not take it back from him, but if we truly give it all to him that load is lifted from our heart. Give Larry a big hug and kiss. I hope he is doing better today.

Anji, praying for your strength to handle everything, and praying for Larry and the kids. Take it an hour at a time. I am walking same path, hsbds cancer progressing. Find joy in the smallest things and never give uo hope. Sharon

Oh Anji,
My heart breaks for you my friend. I wish I could hug you and let you cry it all out. I can commit to praying for you and I will continue to do so. I am praying for strength for you that the Lord will sustain you and give you the strength and courage to keep walking forward. I am praying for time. I am praying for Larry and your precious children. I know you are strong Anji, but let God and those around you carry you through this hard time.

Aloha,
Kathleen

Anji, my heart goes out to you and your family. Sending you my warmest thoughts and prayers. Eve.

My thoughts are with and Larry.

Anji,

My heart goes out to all of you. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

SBL

Praying for you and your family... also praying for a retired firefighter in hospice now. Very hard for everyone involved and I wonder how you manage each day, Anji.

I hope that you will have comfort and peace and hope.

Chrissy

god bless you and your family and may he give you the strength to get thru these trying times. hoping your husband gets better soon and they dont find any more cancer to deal with.