Seriously, WTF? wrote:
Bill, you can "stalk or talk" on our thread anytime you would like. I am happy when people reach out like you did because what you say is just as important to us as what you may read here. Stop in again and by all means start living...again. I tell myself that everyday...we should enjoy here, while we are here ...because there is no here...there. I wake up some days like "WTF"???. I get pissed, sad, and over think my day and then there are days that I just move forward and say screw the cancer, BS, anger, what if's, and I get up and just live my day in the life of our home as it should be. My point is that one really sucky day for me/us could be a really great day for somone else. Together I think we can bring some sort of balance to just let us know that no matter what day ours will be when we wake up...is that we are not alone. Okay, now I have said too much but I hope I said enough
Thanks folks replying to my post. My main point was to acknowledge caregivers. It's easy to fall into ruts and forget to _express_ the thankfulness many of us do in fact feel all the time, or realize from time to time we've forgotten.
I'm always getting comments on how positive I stay. It's not a show either, but behind it all is the awareness of "the big C", like it's a big deal,. I've started to realize that letting that lurk in the background has GOT to be unhealthy and probably partially behind my cranky moment of insanity. I count my kid as my caregiver too, as he really does a lot for me, most without question or fuss. I've at least realized many of my "moments of insanity" and have helped him help me make light of it, while I sort things out.
So anyway, my goal is to put my cancer and it's treatment as much in the background as my asthma was/is, my allergies, my (controlled) high blood pressure, my (so far controlled) cholesterol levels, and even my sinuses, which give me trouble if not taken care of properly. None of these "old" problems consumed significant mindshare, and I took care of them just fine before, and still do.
I bet I can make RC just another item on my Dr to-do list as everything else is without any loss of quality of care, etc..
Wish me luck. Might be a good time to see where my better half is at with it too. Bring her along with me if she's not there, or join her if she's already "there". Heck, she might even be following here, I don't know :-p If so, she's probably shaking her head a bit because I'm going out of town for a couple days on business starting tonight lol. Life IS messy, isn't it?
Again, hat's off to the wives. Just keep on loving us, whatever that looks like your situation.