Postby vickitwo » Thu Dec 26, 2013 10:20 pm
My DH has gone down hill in the last three weeks. He gets winded just standing up. Thank God we have oxygen and Morphine for him. Last night he told me that he was thinking of throwing in the towel and just going with Hospice. He is scheduled for his second round of Folfox/Avastin tomorrow. If that doesn't show any results soon, I don't think he will last long. The oncologist sounded hopeful but the pulmonologist did not. Last week he came with me and my daughter to try and sign up for healthcare with a navigator. We went to eat at Cracker Barrel afterwards. When we walked in it was crowded. Later he told me that the sensation he felt when he walked in was that all of the people would suck up all of the air and leave none for him. That has to be scary as hell. On Christmas Eve our whole family went over to have dinner with three other couple and their families . We all had a very nice time and had lots of laughs. DH did not feel too bad that night and was cracking jokes. The last couple of days though have not been as good. My son has a cold and DH is terrified of catching his cold. It would either kill him or land him in the hospital. Trying to have a BM is an ordeal for him due to the shortness of breath. Today I went to a local thrift shop and got a wheel chair and bedside commode. Last week I got a power of attorney and a will signed. Hospice called today and they will send a nurse practitioner over on Tues. to evaluate DH for palative care. DH has an appt on the 2nd to get the results of the liver biopsy for the clinical trial he is applying for. My hopes for that is fading.
All of the time that my DH has been having this respiratory distress. I have been trying to sign him up for healthcare thru the gov marketplace. He has a PCIP plan that will expire on Dec 31st. I have spent DAYS AND DAYS, HOURS AND HOURS on this. I will spare all of you the details but it has been a NEVER ENDING, FRUSTRATING, FREAKING NIGHTMARE and I am STILL not signed up. I am mad as hell. I cannot understand how the gov. can give you a deadline to sign up for a health plan when their system is broken and you are destined to fail. I am so stressed out already with my DH being so sick and having to deal with all of this is just too much. I have been staying up late and gotten up early trying to sign up so I am fuctioning on little sleep. I think that this is all so inexcusable.
I am so happy that all of my children are home. Today they were all cleaning house.
That's my news. All of you are in my prayers. Cancer is so heartbraking.
Vicki
DH Dx 1/2012 @ age 52
stage IV CC
transverse colon,omentum, cecum,liver,lungs,L5
9 rounds of Folfox, Avastin,
5FU/Leucovorin/Avastin
radiation tx to L5 and hips
Folfiri/Zaltrap
12/13/13 Folfox/Avastin
1/4/2014 passed away @ Hospice House- age 54