After everying I went through I am happier most of the times then I ever was before. I know this sound like a "life time movie" but I do feel more content, calmer less interested in all the little *&@#$% of life at work or on a person note. But sometimes I really get down especialy about my nerve damage in my hands and feel. The pain/stiffness/tingle
is constant it wakes me up at night and is allways their.
I have noticed when I mention this to people they allways say how lucky I am and to read between the lines stop complaining.
Well I can quarantee the person I'm taking to didn't take 5 minutes today to button their bra and shirt because their fingers don't work.
Also they don't have in the back of their mind will the cancer come back?
will it spread? Sometimes I just want to be mad at the world.
It was even worst when I was going through the checmo I noticed I received a lot less emotional support when I told people how I really felt.
But I don't care (part of my new attitude) I'f you ask me how I really feel then I'm going to tell you like it or not and I'f you can't deal with it then too bad.
Does anyone else ever feel like they have to be a "stepford patient"
All ways happy, thanking god everyday cause your alive?
Just want to know if I'm alone here