GUEST wrote:.....SORRY I EVEN WROTE THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE I JUST THOUGHT THERE MIGHT BE OTHER SPOUSES THAT WERE IN THE SAME BOAT.........
GUEST, like Molly said, don't be sorry you posted. Sometimes, I think when we have gone through any kind of significant experience, we expect others to react to the same (or similar) experience as we did. It's easy to forget that we are all individuals and both us and our families often respond in our own way.
My wife and I had been married for just 11 months when I received my diagnosis. I think it hit her harder than it did me. We both lost our mothers to cancer. My mother passed in 1969, when I was just 14 and not required to be a care giver. But, in my wife's case, she lost her mother just 4 years prior and was her mother's primary care giver. She didn't want to have to go through losing a loved one all over again.
My wife, bless her heart, took on so much. She made sure I got to my doctor's appointments, she spent most of my 10 day hospital stay by my side and with little help from me or anyone else, handled most of the preparations for our cross country move that we made just one month after my surgery.
I believe it to be an unreasonable expectation for anyone to have to conform to any situation in a certain way, just because that's how someone else did it. I have an incredible amount of respect and admiration for Molly and others like her, who are such incredible advocates for cancer research and awareness. I'm not sure I would have the strength and dedication to make it my life's work, like she has. But, I do what I can in my own way. I talked about it on my hockey broadcasts, even interviewed Molly. This weekend, I am the emcee for my area's Relay for Life. I used to want people to see me as the broadcast voice of the Tri-City Storm hockey team, so that they would then be encouraged to listen to the games on the radio and hear our advertiser's commercials. But now I want people to see me and know that I am am cancer survivor and that it is a disease that can be beaten.
GUEST, lots of people can give you advice on how to "handle" your situation. I think (and this is just my opinion)you have to take those opinions, suggestions, tips, advice, whatever and apply what you find useful and mold it into your own road map through the journey you are on. All you can do is the best you can do. That's all anyone should expect. Best of luck to you.