Hi Everyone!
I'm so happy to know that there's a site like this get support from others who really know what it's like to have colon cancer. I thought it was extremely rare for someone who's 31 to have colon cancer, but from what I read it's not as rare as I thought.
My life was turned upside down a month ago when I was diagnosed with Stage IV CC. Over a month ago my biggest concern was checking off things to get done for my wedding and what gifts to register for. Who knew those things would become sooooooo unimportant, after I found out about my cancer. I was suppose to start my new life with my fiancee, get hitched, have children, etc. My world came crashing down.
In October, I noticed that I had blood in my stool so I went to see the doctor. He said that it was hemorrhoids. Unfortunately, I was having a lot of bowel problems even with the medication he gave me, like difficulty having bowel movements, gas, bloatedness, mucous in my stool, etc. So I went back to him in January, and he referred me to a proctologist. At that time, I had a scope put into me, and the doctor noticed the mucous, but he could only see 10 cm into me. So he referred me to get a colonoscopy done on Feb. 10, 2007. When I went in for the colonoscopy,
I found out that I had colon cancer. I was immediately admitted into the hospital because a large tumor was found in the sigmoid region of my large intestine (20 cm from my rectum). I was devastated, but I hoped the cancer was localized. On Feb. 11, my surgeon took a look at my CAT scan and told me that it looks like the colon cancer spread to my liver and thus my lymph nodes. Once again, the news was devastating, but I remained hopeful. On Feb. 12, I went into surgery to remove
the tumor in my colon, but the tumors on my liver were too large and there were too many for them to be resected. My oncologist came in to see me the next day to tell me that my cancer was incurable and that I had an average of 6-20 months to live. At that point I lost all hope, and did not want to go on with the wedding or burden anyone. I tried and tried to remain hopeful, but the oncologist was very pessimistic and gave no hope as she answered a personal phone call while breaking the news to me and she told me that she was very busy and did not have time to answer all the questions my family had. After a couple days of pulling myself together, I decided I needed to fight this cancer head on regardless of the oncologist’s prognosis.
I had to wait 3 and half weeks to heal from my surgery before I could start my chemo treatments. In the meantime, I met with 4 other oncologist who gave me more hope than the first one. I'm also seeing Dr. Kemeny in NY to see if I'll be a candidate for HAI and I have another appointment with another oncologist in a couple weeks. My family and I are not giving up and we're making sure we know what my options are in fighting off this horrible disease.
There is no doubt, that what I’m facing is serious, but hearing about all the successes on this site gives me so much hope. My age is a very big plus b/c I can take on aggressive chemo and my spirits are getting stronger each day. I just had my first round of chemo on March 7 and so far I’m doing okay. My major battle now is the pain in my abdominal area especially my liver, but its controlled mostly with vicodin and morphine. I know the chemo is accumulative, so thus it will get harder with time, but I have so much to live for. Those of you who have gone through Chemo with 5-Fu, Avastin, Folfox, please let me know how you did, how you felt, did your hair fall out, could you still work?
I'm going to still get married because I have the most incredible man in my life who still wants to go through with the wedding despite my condition. I love Jared with all my heart and couldn't ask for a better husband to be! I have much more strength each day to battle this cancer. Please visit my website
www.supportcindy.org if you'd like to see what an awesome job my best friend and brother did to uplift my spirits. You can also check out my engagement pics on this site. I took my engagement pics 3 weeks after surgery, so I'm crazy but I'm very proud of them b/c I had to climb rocks and walk down and up stairs.
I have a great support system, but at this point think I need to talk to others facing what I'm facing to give me more hope for my sanity. Thanks for reading this long message, but understand that I'm a newbie with a lot to say. I promise to try to make my future messages more brief! Can't wait to hear from anyone! LOL, Cindy