I can't tell you how many times God has intervened in my life during my cancer journey. In the beginning, I was desperate and despondent - heck just hearing those words, 'You have cancer' is enough to drive anyone to despair. Maybe a week after I was diagnosed, my youngest, Erik, then barely 15, prayed for me one night and God spoke to him as plain as day and told him "your mom will be okay". Six months later, during a Mass at school, just before Christmas vacation, once again, God spoke to Erik and told him that I was going to be ok. There were some very special meanings to that Mass, the 'voice' that Erik heard, when Erik heard it, etc. but it's not important for this message. One time, when I was getting super frustrated because all the doctors kept telling me that the plan I wanted to do wouldn't work, wasn't 'standard of care', etc. I was praying and this phrase came to me ' daughter all is well'. I don't know about you, but I don't talk like that! God helped me through those first few months - I spent countless hours on the living room couch at 3AM talking to Him and praying to Him. He has NEVER let me down and has remained with me during each step that I have taken. It took a long time, more chemo than I had hoped for, a lot of frustration along the way, but I was able to have the surgery that I wanted. Many times during those nine months, frankly, I just wanted to give up - I didn't believe that anything would go my way! But I have always remembered and kept close to my heart those words that Erik heard. God doesn't lie, He doesn't deceive and He always keeps His word!
I will gladly accept prayers and pray for anyone else on this board who also wants some extra prayers said for them. I also posted many times on an online prayer site and had people praying for me and I have to tell you, it really felt good to know that random people in this world cared about me and were praying for me.
Dx 6/22/2006 IIA rectal cancer
6 wks rad/Xeloda -finished 9/06
1st attempt transanal excision 11/06
11/17/06 XELOX 1 cycle
5 months Xeloda only Dec '06 - April '07
10+ blood clots, 1 DVT 1/07
transanal excision 4/20/07 path-NO CANCER CELLS!
NED now and forever!
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