Very scared and anxious
Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 11:06 am
Hello everyone. I knew to this board but have spent the last few days perusing the posts. I'm blown away by everyone's kindness, courage and knowledge.
I thought I'd step in with a post. I've had very loose bowels since my mid 20's. I never really had any pain associated with them. I just always had to go a lot, in the morning, sometimes up to 5 times. Occasionally, I'd have an afternoon episode as well, after eating lunch. No stomach cramps, just a sensation of urgency.
I never really thought anything of it, until my mother was diagnosed with colon cancer at age 59. She finished up chemo for Stage IIIb cancer this past summer. (She's also had a lumpectomy and radiation for breast cancer, as well.)
At my last physical, I had talked with my physician about my bowel movements and due to my family history, she suggested a colonoscopy. I had planned on getting one, but at the time, my second-born child was only a few months old and still breastfeeding ALL THE TIME, so I put off scheduling the test because my daughter wouldn't except any method of feeding but me.
Well, now she's 15 months and I was ready to schedule a colonoscopy but hadn't yet gotten around to it. Two days ago I had some even more liquid BM's than usual, and I was surprised to see a fair amount of blood on the TP and in the toilet. Not to be gross, but a line of it from the top of the bowl down into the toilet, and little clots. This was repeated two more times with each successive bowel movement.
Again, no pain. Needless to say, I am freaking out. And today, my tailbone is hurting me, and of course, like an idiot I Google 'tailbone pain and colon cancer' and get way too many hits. I'm actually shaking, I'm so afraid.
My first appintment with the gastroenterologist is next week. Obviously, I won't be getting the colonoscopy first thing. Does anyone know what I can expect? A manual examination of the rectum, followed by a scheduled colonoscopy?
I appreciate any and all feedback, as I feel like I seriously need a fistful of Xanax at this time.
I thought I'd step in with a post. I've had very loose bowels since my mid 20's. I never really had any pain associated with them. I just always had to go a lot, in the morning, sometimes up to 5 times. Occasionally, I'd have an afternoon episode as well, after eating lunch. No stomach cramps, just a sensation of urgency.
I never really thought anything of it, until my mother was diagnosed with colon cancer at age 59. She finished up chemo for Stage IIIb cancer this past summer. (She's also had a lumpectomy and radiation for breast cancer, as well.)
At my last physical, I had talked with my physician about my bowel movements and due to my family history, she suggested a colonoscopy. I had planned on getting one, but at the time, my second-born child was only a few months old and still breastfeeding ALL THE TIME, so I put off scheduling the test because my daughter wouldn't except any method of feeding but me.
Well, now she's 15 months and I was ready to schedule a colonoscopy but hadn't yet gotten around to it. Two days ago I had some even more liquid BM's than usual, and I was surprised to see a fair amount of blood on the TP and in the toilet. Not to be gross, but a line of it from the top of the bowl down into the toilet, and little clots. This was repeated two more times with each successive bowel movement.
Again, no pain. Needless to say, I am freaking out. And today, my tailbone is hurting me, and of course, like an idiot I Google 'tailbone pain and colon cancer' and get way too many hits. I'm actually shaking, I'm so afraid.
My first appintment with the gastroenterologist is next week. Obviously, I won't be getting the colonoscopy first thing. Does anyone know what I can expect? A manual examination of the rectum, followed by a scheduled colonoscopy?
I appreciate any and all feedback, as I feel like I seriously need a fistful of Xanax at this time.