well, i know my doctors sorta staged me...i mean, they said "we think POSSIBLY stage 3" after some scopes n stuff. though they were clear to say "we won't know for sure til surgery though" i think it you understand that it's sorta like a 'guesstimate' on their part, it's not wrong for a doc. to guag...

hahaha! awesome! yea, i have a small nose stud, and a tongue ring (actually forgot i was gonna make a post bout something related to that...). i took it out when i had the port put in, and as soon as i came out from the fog in recovery i asked for my jewelry and put it back in before i even put my c...

just wondering...those of you who have scars on their abdomen...has anyone done, or thought about getting a tattoo to cover it? i've wanted to get the one on my shoulder covered up for sometime, but now i think i have an excuse to cover it up, and maybe incorporate something later on that will exten...

right, it's always hard to be in the dark. and like you, i just want to be healthy right now, fertility isn't a concern for me. conan was awesome! it was soo interesting to see live tv taped. we waited in line for 4 hours! I had my sign...but they made me throw it out before i went in the theatre. s...

not to sound rude by any means, but... both of you have already had children. why be so concerned about concieving again, you have something. as opposed to me who will never have kids, and didn't have kids previously. while adoption is completey acceptable to me, and i'm not really complaining that ...

you know, i think it is...but i haven't even talked about cost. i'm just going with it. I'm hoping i qualify for medicaid soon so it can cover all these other major bills..

Alright, so i'm gonna make a sign that says "i'm missing chemo to see conan" (since technically i go in on wednesday mornings, i'm gonna instead go in after the show is done taping, that evening) I talked to my doc. today and said "hey, can i go in to the hospital tomorrow night instead? I have tick...

oh. my heads gonna explode.

(and yea, it's me)

damnit, i don't even want babies!!! i just wanna NOT be on estrogen for the next 25 years.

aaarghh.

hmmm....
okay, sounds good.
so i wonder, they mention taking the ovaries and putting them behind the uterus.
but in my case, it wouldn't be that it'd be clipping them up in the ovary. I wonder if it has the same results?
Who on here has gone through a procedure like this and then radiation?

Alright, I'm going to see Conan Obrian on wednesday since he's filming in chicago this week...and the guest on the show is Dave Chappelle. Sooo, my mom jokingly says "you should wear a sign saying 'i have cancer, please let me meet Dave and/or Conan'" (im a HUGE fan of both) i don't really care so m...

yea, the radiation is what does it.... my personal concern is not for fertility after, i just would like to NOT be menopausal after. I'm gonna try to have my right ovarie clipped up and out of the way (as i understand it, my left one is too close to the colon?? eh..whatever) It's not a guarantee tha...

alright, good stuff. i like honesty. you know what i really wanna do? i wanna run through the streets shaking my fists at my father. and what the hell good is that gonna do? he died when i was 6. and up til right now i never gave him a lot of thought. he wasn't a part of the majority of my life. not...

holly, i just picked up the brochure for this when i went to the gilda's club meeting here. they actually had a snapshot of survival weekly meeting at the club where every saturday for the past month or so people can meet and work on art together. i only just found out about it so i missed all the s...

Thanks edward...yes, i'm angry alot. i'm frustrated alot. but most the time i just take things as they come. and am pretty laidback as a whole. but sometimes...just sometimes it all just gets to me. so an update, went to the hospital today fully expecting the port to be taken out, but they brought a...

thanks mary and holly. i've pulled myself back outta my funk...of course only to be put back in it by the decision to take my port out. the bit about the bikini...it's not scars so much i'm concerned about as much as the whole 'ostomy' and bag. i'm sure that'll be what restricts me from doing that. ...